So basically I haven't blogged in a year...well....a lot's happened in that year....
I promise to blog at least one week/month from now on, basically more for myself than for anyone else, and to update on how i am doing with recovery and everything. And sometimes just to rant about things in life that may be happening....
I am a terrible writer so just bear with me okay.....
Anyways within this past year, i've hit my lowest point ever, and got sent to Remuda Ranch in Wickenburg, AZ. What an amazing place, they helped me immensely, and I feel that I have the skills i need to go on in life. Lately though I am just feeling down and depressed and dealing with a lot, and am having a rough time of it all. I'm going through a struggle and a lower point, but not a relapse, i will not let it get to a relapse, i vow to never be in treatment again.
Anyways, I just hope i can keep it up and keep myself strong and get through it all, spring holds really tough memories, and i just hope i can get through it without breaking down like i did last year.
Anyways i don't have much else to say right now i will post another blog later probably venting about stuff that's happened this week.

Struggling

I'm just struggling a lot right now with my eating disorder and life, i don't know what I am doing. i am graduating in a month, and don't know where I am going after graduation. I want to do so much with my life, but my eating disorder has held me back for so long. I have days I don't even know whether or not i want to live. I really want to put this behind me though, and recover. I just wish I didn't feel so alone in all of this. I'm stressing so much about my future and health and everything else. I am just so confused.......
But anyways, even though I just feel like giving up right now, I will not give up, I will keep holding on to that thread of hope that I can get through it all.
And to anyone else struggling, you can get through it too, just keep fighting!!!!!