Struggling

I'm just struggling a lot right now with my eating disorder and life, i don't know what I am doing. i am graduating in a month, and don't know where I am going after graduation. I want to do so much with my life, but my eating disorder has held me back for so long. I have days I don't even know whether or not i want to live. I really want to put this behind me though, and recover. I just wish I didn't feel so alone in all of this. I'm stressing so much about my future and health and everything else. I am just so confused.......
But anyways, even though I just feel like giving up right now, I will not give up, I will keep holding on to that thread of hope that I can get through it all.
And to anyone else struggling, you can get through it too, just keep fighting!!!!!